I think the amount of movies I watch is starting to have an effect on my life. I only recently realized that I watch an excessive amount of movies; as a kid I always thought it was normal to see at least 3 over a weekend. Now, i realize just how odd it is, especially in classes like Spanish, where we are asked what we did over the weekend. Well, I as usual, went out to the movie theatre to see the newest block buster. Overall, I think that all these movies I watch is effecting my life. The earliest examples of this I can remember is when I saw parts of the movie Psycho at age 5. I now have an irrational fear of closed shower curtains, thanks to infamous shower slasher scene. As I get older, I am starting to realize I worry, legitimately worry, about myself, my friends, or my family being brutally killed by a murderer, killed in a tragic accident, succumbing to a terrible illness, etc. I have a firm belief that something tragic could happen to someone I love at any given time. Luckuly for me, I haven't yet hit the point of paranoia.

I'm getting there.

I take tests at light speed. I dunno why, but for all my life, I've nearly always been the first one finished with exam/test/quiz. I suppose part of it is that I'm a quick reader, but that can't be all of it. I remember when I was in fifth grade and we were taking the Georgia elementary school equivalent of the OGTs, my teachers would be super worried because I would finish with another half hour to to complete the test. They scolded me for speeding through the test, and made me go back through them to check for mistakes. However, whenever I got my test results back, I finish in the top 10 to 15 percent of people to take the tests. Now, this blog isn't to brag, and besides, most of us in IB do score that high on tests - hence why we are in IB. However good my test scores may be, though, I still feel extremely self-conscience when I finish up to 15 minutes before the rest of the class, especially when the test was considering an extremely difficult writing exam. Actually, I usually only finish fast when I am taking multiple choice exams. When it comes to writing, I have to slow myself down to make sure that my handwriting is legible.

So, I look up to/admire a lot of people. I'm gonna list them off.

1. Billie Joe Armstrong- for creating music I'll never get tired of.
2. Emma Church- for being so incessantly happy (something I'll never pull off).
3. Katie Clark- for having way more pop culture knowledge than I ever will.
4. Ian Benson- for being super witty, smart, and having way more pop culture knowledge than I ever will.
5. Ian Kropp- for being really chilled out, having a lot of facial hair, and being musically talented.
6. Leah Jereb- for being more dedicated to something than I ever will be.
7. John Micheal- for possessing the intelligence and voice that I could only with for.
8. Miguel Benedict- for being absolutely hysterical, and fun to talk to.
9. Jake Hays- for having pride I could never have.
10. Ben Davis- for being a fantastic runner
11. Ashleigh Shydlowski- for being artistic and scholastic, a simultaneous feat I could never accomplish.
12. Sam Alonso- for having a much more positive outlook on life.
13. Tori Horvath- for being able to find her calling in life so early
14. Sarah Carbone- for having closer friends than I ever will
15. Nate Benson- for having the best barn ever, as well as a better fashion sense
16. Michael Sokolich- for being so dedicated to swim and school, a dedication I never had.
17. Matt Blatnick- for being totally comfortable with his life

And that's all I have to say about that.

You know what I've realized over the course of the past 18 weeks in TOK? Well, moreover in life itself, but these are TOK blogs, so I'm gonna keep thhem on topic. Well, i am so extremely judgemental, angry, and cynical. I think. I just keep seeing people and thinking immediately after, wow... You are possibly the most annoying person I have ever met. I've realized I have been the angriest in all my life in these past few weeks... What ever happened to me being really happy? IB isn't that tough, it's destroying my morale...

I really feel as if i need to find a way to cheer up. I've been scowling too much lately. OH! Also, if anyone ever makes a mistake, or does something that I find irrational or weird, I feel the need to correct them (Sorry Emma...). Blahh.
Also, I've found that I would much rather write a TOK blog than write an english essay on WUTHERING HEIGHTS.

I'm egotistic.

I am the very definition of "nerd". I play D&D. I know how to write programs and build a computer. I play an extraneous amount of video games. I use words like extraneous. I'm in IB. For years, I've been part of the outcast clique. My friends and I had more cult classic references than most people had songs in their iPod. But then, all of a sudden, being nerdy became cool. All of a sudden, you could buy tee shirts with Mario on them. A band called N.E.R.D. came out. TV shows like Chuck and The Big Bang Theory became popular. Just recently, Buddy Holly glasses and dress shirts became the fashion. All considering, I shouldn't be complaining. The things I've been enjoying for years are becoming mainstream, allowing me and my friends to better relate to our peers. However, I feel as if I've lost my very own "super secret club" amongst my friends. I feel as if I've lost my individuality, the very thing that set me apart from the crowd for so long. It's selfish of me, but I really do wish I could have kept all the nerdyness to myself and my friends.

So, I've decided facebook.com is the new age teen journal, where all the sad and angst ridden preteens can unload their feelings. Unfortunately for the rest of the users, though, facebook just happens to be public. Everybody gets to see when Annie breaks up with her boyfriend, and all the song lyrics she thinks that describes her terrible life perfectly. Then, she moves on to inspirational quotes, or Angsty Annie decides her life sucks, that she is so much more alienated and alone than the rest of her peers. Then comes the fan pages, that Angsty Annie can "like", with such great sayings like, "You broke my heart", and "I hate that every time that your name lights up on my phone, I fall a little bit harder for you, but every time my name lights up on your phone, I'm just another girl". Now, while I am not belittling the girl's emotions, I would like to point out a site with several million users, and a site which nearly every single one of Angsty Annie's friends use, is not the place to advertise your personal emotional problems and issues. Unfortunately for Angsty Annie, for every true friend that uses the site, she has 100 acquaintances on her friend list that simply don't care.

HEAT.

In physics, we're learning all about the wonderous world of heat and thermal energy. Well, according to Mr. LoGalbo, a seemingly trustworthy source, there is no cold. Just a lack of movement of molecules. Temperature is the measure of the movement of molecules, and heat is the transfer of that speed from one molecule to the other. Therefore, feeling something that is hot is a bunch of the fast little particles hitting your slow little particles on your hand. Like, the stove molecules hit your hand really fast and then your hand molecules get fast. Therefore hot. Isn't that a weird concept? I just can't imagine the microscopic world. All everything is is just molecules. Little atoms, with swirling atoms. Technically, around 90 percent of an atoms space is completely unoccupied. There's nothing there. Nothing at all, for 90% of an atom. Which means what makes up everything is mostly not even there. The super crazy fast movement of the electron provides the stability and structure and function of an atom. Also, just a few more positive and negative charges on an atom can turn lead into gold. Or hydrogen into gold. Or oxygen to gold. The only difference between the elements is a few different charges. + or - decides whether an atom is the most valuable substance on the planet or deadly if it comes anywhere near a human. I don't think I'll ever be able to comprehend the microscopic world.